[19 jan, mon] forget le.. haas..



[20 jan, tues] i think tat day go hm strait after sch ba... then i chat wit ah hwee tat day.. hmmm tat all....



[21 jan, wed] went to sch normally... then have lunch in sch... juz a normal human life... haiz... then alvin msg me ask me after sch free ma.. i say nt really... free awhile nia.. then he say nvm.. then i force him say wat he wan... then he tell me he wanna me acc him go NUH... then i say okae sure [i do any thing for him].... then he say nvm na.. nt free nvm de.. then i say nvm, i go wit euu... hmmm... he say ok... then meet his sis at NUH... tis is the 2nd tym i met his sis... after visit... we take bus go hm... his sis and me chat all the way from NUH to wdlands... then alvin say we so fast can chat till so happy.. then alvin ask wat we chatting abt... then we say we chatting abt our both family things.. haas... juz lyk 'san gu liu po'.. haas...



[22 jan, thurs] after sch went home bath, make up... then go meet alvin, ah yap and my bro... we go NUH together... all the way play play... haas.. juz lyk small kids.. haas... i lyk the way we are... tat is who we are...hmmm. then ah hwee sms me chat chat... chat till 2 hours plus.. haas.. then alvin and ah song plan to meet up in the mid night... then... i nv go meet them.. too tired le na.. nt enough sleep oso.. cuz this few days dunno busy wat... late late sleep.. early early wake up... then mid nite sleep till half wake up go toilet onli jiu suddenly nose bleeding=.=...



[today] nv go sch... tooooo tired liao... then... wat i wanna to say is... 这几个星期以来我好不容易慢慢的没有那么爱他了， 没有那么想他了。已经可以不用那么依赖他，疼他，爱他，想他。但是今天早上，我一起床到现在就一直想他。在想他这几天已经不够睡了，还要半夜去meet ah song， 不知道会不会累？ 开始担心他。 又很想见到他。。 跟他聊废话 。 一起吃饭之类的。 我才发现， 因为这一切的一切，又跑回了原来的我们。 像以前的那么疼我，关心我的他又回来了。为什么这一切要回到原点呢？ 回到原点的我，就是那么的痛苦。但是我很喜欢他对我的一切。我的心又爱又痛！ 就好像，甜里带苦，苦里带甜。。 我什么都不知道，但我只知道，我现在很想他！！